It was a sudden decision that melissa (the team captain) had to leave for Australia. It was saddening but it's okay, because we told her that we would train hard to get that gold we were yearning for. Round robin was round the corner & that was when everyone started putting in their 100%, just to get into the team for c div nationals. there were 8 of us, who would be fighting for 5 positions, because the other two were taken by our juniors, who were dsa girls & were really good. (: Everyone became competitive & after round robin, the team wasn't close like before. Those who didn't make it to the team were very sad, & started being really a little pessimistic. We were sad that they didn't make it into the team, but we couldn't do much. They gave us their support during nationals & we tried our best to win our games, for our seniors ( who we promised to win for. ) & for the team. we made it into the finals, of what which seemed impossible to others. we proved them wrong. It was really devastating losing the deciding match which took me quite a period of time to recover. Mrs lee told us, ' every point, you'll have to think, who you're winning it for, if you wanna win the point for the team, do your best.' Things weren't really going our way before nationals because some of us fell sick & I sprained my ankle rather badly just four days before nationals. It got me really frustrated & angry at myself for not being careful, spraining my ankle just on the day mr tan told us about being careful & not training so much that you might injure yourself.' & to think we were like, ' wah, whos so unlucky man!' haha, speak about karma. It was a setback but i was hopeful that i would be able to recover in time, a little at least. I could hear my bones when i fell, it was scary. Went to the chinese docs, he was really good. It was painful especially when he twisted the bones back to place. okay anyway, thats not the point. So yeah, we lost finals. But it's alright, Mg was good. (: After nationals, we drifted even further, & they don't seem to be interested in training anymore. Also because they have many programmes going on for them. Team talks didn't seem to work out, & everyone was just not present for team outings. & now were all so split up, were just not what we used to be. Nothing seems to work out. Melissa left, Abigail left. & now with the rest, everyone being busy with what they have going on for them this holiday. Was on the phone with gladys just now. It's just hard to change the way they think about this whole thing now. Is it because I haven't been a good captain & didn't put in much effort to change their mindset? Haven't i just been trying hard enough, or maybe i guess the effort put in, it's just not enough. How we used to be, doesn't seem to be how we are now.







